Rewriting the nursery rhyme
19 year old female
It was one week after my 15th birthday and in all honesty I was surprised I'd even made it this far. I kind of saw life like the nursery rhyme Humpty Dumpty on repeat - me thinking things couldn't possible get any worse, yet they always did.
The night I called Kids Helpline, I was home alone and had come to the conclusion that if Humpty Dumpty wasn't fixable then neither was I. I had no idea that night that I would speak to the one person who has been able to help me rewrite my nursery rhyme.
I didn't know what to expect when I called Kids Helpline. I just wanted to sit on the phone, bawl my eyes out and actually know someone cared. I think what stood out about Kids Helpline to me was the fact that they were there every day, at any time. Problems aren't something you can just switch on or off or let fit into a convenient hour session once a week.
I think my biggest hurdle has been one of acceptance. Accepting what has happened in my life, accepting that there are just some things no matter how hard I try I will never be able to change, but most of all accepting myself and who I am. I think the key to actually wanting to wake up the next day is to have a reason to want to do so.
So if I can choose just one thing out of the countless things my Kids Helpline counsellor has given me, it is the ability to challenge my demons, discover positives in negatives, create goals I never thought were possible and hold my head high as I walk towards the future.. Because without Kids Helpline I might as well have fallen asleep forever.
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