Inside I am a boy
16 year old female
I didn't really know what to call myself for a long time. Since I was young, I've never been able to identify with myself as a girl, even though that was - biologically at least - what everyone else called me. I was always aware that inside, I was a boy. It just seemed like everyone else around me was confused. I played the "boy sports", hung out with the boys, wore the boys uniform and cut my hair so that it looked just like the boys' too.
Because I felt like I wasn't allowed to be me, I was always really down, even since I was a little kid, at even four or five years old. Depression was a constant part of my life until I talked to a counsellor about it, and they said that it was okay for me to be a guy, as opposed to a chick - like everyone else said I was. So, now, instead of pretending to be something I'm not, I'm just myself, and I reckon that's enough. Some people still say I'm a freak, beat me up, spread rubbish about me - some even try to cure me! But I know that I'm more me as a guy than I am as a girl.
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