Was sexually assaulted
13 year old female
Two years a go, I was sexually assaulted by my best friend and older brother. I spent the entire night there and left as soon as the sun rose. I never spoke to them again but it was difficult not running into them because they caught the same bus as me every day. My mum knew something was up because I didn't talk much and I never spoke about them again. I felt scared and every day seemed like the impossible task. I didn't want to go out to school, I didn't eat and I was always sleeping my time away, because I felt like sleeping was the only safe place - nothing could harm me there.
I started to hurt myself. I was still getting harassed on the bus by them, they were always threatening and I felt like I couldn't go to anyone because no one would believe me. So, one day, I went to a school counsellor. I knew that I couldn't say what was on my mind, it was too much. So I asked if there was a helpline or something that was available. She gave me stickers to Kids Helpline and when I got home, I had to make sure no one was around because I didn't want anyone knowing I was talking to them.
I called up and my heart was pounding, racing and I was nervous. In the end, I couldn't do it. So I went looking on the website and saw web counselling. I went on there and talked to a lovely girl and she really helped me get through it. They just understood me and they encouraged me and they told me what I should do. I suddenly felt like there was a future for me.
I never thought I would ever see past high school, I thought of myself as a failure and for the first time for many months, I felt happy. I had energy again and I felt like I was seeing with new eyes. I felt confident and just so filled with joy. It was like finally exiting out of a pitch black tunnel and into the light. It was really worth it. I don't know what would have happened to me if it weren't for Kids Helpline. :)
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