Stress really got to me
18 year old female
Sometimes you don't even realise you have a problem until you look back on what you've been doing and how you've been acting. I was in my last year of high school and having a pretty tough time with everything. I was under a huge amount of pressure at school and home, because everyone thought I was coping well and going to receive a top ATAR, as well as succeed in everything else.
The stress was really getting to me, and I got to the point where I would harm myself or starve myself for punishment. I thought what I was doing was normal at the time - just the natural way to deal with things. No one else knew, they just saw the perfect girl they thought I was.
I would sneak out at night or bludge school to exercise, steal food to binge on and waste my money, all of which was so unlike me! Everything just became too much, so I logged on to web counselling, just to suss it out.
Well, I ended up talking for ages about my problems to a counsellor who didn't judge me or anything, and it wasn't until then that I actually realised I had an eating disorder and was harming myself. At first I denied it, and I thought that they had no idea what they were talking about, they didn't know me anyway! But I did some more research and realised that they were right.
So, because of Kids Helpline I realised I had a problem, and eventually got the help I really needed. I probably would have kept going the way I had been if it wasn't for Kids Helpline.
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