Finally spoke up
15 year old female
Well guys, here is my story. From the age of 8 until early this year I was getting raped and sexual abused from my cousin. No one knew about this, I didn't tell anyone.
While I was going thru this I couldn't handle all the stress that was going with it. I didn't speak to anyone about it, I just kept it all to myself. Because of this and my family life, my mum and dad and I were always fighting and arguing.
It was hard growing up. I grew up with my older sister who is 12 years older then me. My sister has bipolar which is a mental illness. I was always worried and scared about what was going to happen to her.
Since grade 9 (currently in grade 11) I turned to self harm, alcohol and violence to deal with all my issues that I didn't tell anyone about. Beginning of this year (grade11) I finally spoke up about what was happen to me. It wasn't easy. I found it hard to talk about.
I had so many years of frustration and anger - every feeling you could think of I was feeling and going through. It was so hard to sit there with my school Chaplain and talk about it though, but it was the best feeling I have ever had.
Since I spoke to her I've seen 3 counsellors. I see my main counsellor once a week, I also speak to my school counsellor when things get real tough. I speak to Kids Helpline a few times a week because I know the person on the other end cares and is willing to help me out.
I'm still self harming but not as much as I use to. I'm finding other healthy ways to deal with it. So I'm saying to you kids out there that are going through hard times - don't give up, speak up, you will feel heaps better. And remember don't be scared because what do you have to lose??
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