Everything was a mess
16 year old female
Everything was a mess, and it was all my fault. I didn't know what to do anymore. It was about a year ago that I decided to email Kids Helpline. I had already tried to go to a counsellor in my area, but I needed more help. I was suicidal, tired of getting the blame for everything, tired of hearing all my family's problems, and tired of seeing the scars on my arms and legs.
I wanted change, to be happy, and have a dream. You see, my family has always had its problems. My dad has never been there for me, never wanted to be either...I don't have a real dad. The family always was sick - someone would be in hospital, or someone needed a babysitter. There were money problems, and continual fights...life wasn't like the fairytales you see on tv. So as I said before, I had had enough of everything and I needed to talk to someone I could trust.
It took me a while to get the confidence up to talk to my counsellors, but in the end she was nice, and would listen and respond to everything I said and asked. If it wasn't for Kids Helpline I may not be alive. They have taught me to look at the positives, to stick with my family through thick and thin, and also to LOOK AFTER MYSELF...I am just the same as other people and should take care of myself.
Today and tomorrow will still bring challenges but I am now more confident and every time I feel sad, lonely or depressed I reread the emails I have from Kids Helpline and I remember that there are people in my life who do actually care! :)
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